Can’t believe this is what im doing right now
Im sitting in a café
In tribeca
In new york
And they’re playing flowers
And a year and a half ago I lived through flowers, fell down and picked myself up, inviting people to join me, danced with myself and celebrated all of our failures,
Will it be the greatest thing I’ve ever done?
No
Cause im in new york now
Booking a fucking hostel in Sydney two months from now

And don’t stress about finding an apartment katinka
Don’t stress about your relationship katinka
All in its time
You’ve lived for 28 years and the gigantic scope of things you’ve experienced?? I could cry
Im so proud of you

You’ve built your life on being a go-getter
Now give yourself a break
Receive for a bit, take it chill, find comfort in being a bit homeless for a while,
Leave the slate clean for other people to fill it out,
Just try it out,
See how that feels too
Youre really good at seeing how things feel, trying one thing and then trying another

Yes its tempting to apply for a job right now
To email all the cafes back home
Or the front of houses
And you could
And maybe it would be a good idea
But today youre in tribeca,
And the sun is out and you’ve got your gorgeous shoes on to compliment your gorgeous lady body
And your coffee is cold because you’ve been too absorbed into writing and researching and all the things youre doing when your computer is open

And your coffee is cold and that’s fine
But maybe try to see this upcoming spring as a coffee, try to drink it while it’s hot, theres nothing wrong with cold coffee honestly that’ll just be iced coffee on a very hot summer day where the ice melts too quickly,
But lets do January and February and March as a steaming hot coffee, lets drink it and see what happens in the meantime, you don’t have to control everything that happens, maybe something will happen TO you
Maybe people will ask you to do things
Theyre already starting to
Carol just hired you yesterday for 4 days of intense work in February
She asked YOU

And your boyfriend is sweet and kind and struggling a bit and maybe now is just the time to be there for him, not to worry about your own things because theyre going splendidly, just be there for him and enjoy that you’re in tribeca and that the sun is out and that the air is crisp and you’ve got two episodes of Sentimental In The City left,

Your visa got you in
Bikubenfonden let you in and gave you an apartment
Sidse let you in and you’ve learned so much about directing naturalistically,
Kristin let you in and you’re going to fucking assist in making an OPERA ABOUT RESPONSIBLE ACTIVISM

And your family is healthy and safe and they love you
And at the moment, I think, no one is mad or annoyed with you,
And you might catch a movie with Dan later today and I could cry

How did you get so lucky? You’ve been drinking cold coffee and you’ve enjoyed it, and im so fucking proud of you, my only advise is to never forget to say thank you, keep thanking your uncle for his money and keep thanking your parents for their support and keep sending videos to your nieces and keep asking your sister about how she’s doing and not just how her children are doing, maybe actually call your sister right now, drink your shitty delicious cold coffee and call your sister to tell her you love her